vanilla

July 27, 2010

(source @Yesterday's Fate)

long time no blog people :) missed me so bad ? calm down calm down , i'm here to cheer all of you up ^o^ lol ~

cheers ~~~
ah !!Sheryl just give me the gift ;) actually it's an award for me :) here it is ~

really thanks for her de :D my blog is neat ;) yes yes !!

and about how are me ? i'm just good and i'm really stuck with soo much homeworks .. i know this is such a responsiblity but i'm kinda tired --" and i missed my ex much T.T he said we could be a friend not more just like we used to be , i'm tottaly sick ..

i really want him to back :( he really had changed , he's not just like was .. he's totally different T.T and i'm so afraid to message him .. i'm not suppose to bother him .. or maybe he already have another girl in her heart :(
i don't know why i'm feeling just like this .. i never feel like this before , i wonder always wonder ..
is he thinks of me ? maybe not , if he still love me ? maybe not .. is he still want me to be his ? maybe no .. it's totally a big no T.T i missed the way he talked , the way he smiled , the way he joked arround T.T and i missed how we doing stuff together .. he's such an ignorrant but i really love him T.T

i don't know how to do .. i can't pretend to be happy .. but i'm crying in the back ,, i can't continue to do all of this .. i'm so tired being a puppet .. friends said that i'm okay .. but totally no ..

and about my school .. all great ~ i'm going to have the schoolarship ! always in a hope :)

my dreams ::
~ be a succesful woman
~ make my parents happy
~ stay in abroad
~ go around the world
~ and i should live happily ever after

should take my leave :) bye bye ..