vanilla

August 16, 2010

why do i feel like this ??
why do i feel so afraid ??
can't we pretending all the time ?
can't we stop growing ?
i just can't stop asking ,can't stop wondering
why do we keep walking ?
why don't we just take a rest from this life ?
why don't we just write an ending of all of this ?
or maybe spell a bibidi alookaboo to stop the time
i lost my breath .. i lost my sight .. or might be will ..
will lost my last life ..
please stop there , you have step too far
please looks behind ,when you leave me
why you just be an ignorant for me ?
the tears falls slightly ..
and my voice cannot reach your name
i lied on the ground and suddenly sigh
.........................

i made some .. errrr maybe it's a lil poem ?? O.O dont know lah ~
just a random things i think about lah~ but i love it , chuuu ~

why do i feel so nostalgic when it's in the rain and i listen to some odd musics ,
i feel i live in the past again , why do i need to memorize that moments we had so pretty ??
the joy we had , and i still remember that happy laughter that surrounded me ..
it's all changes ,, yeah ,life always change the form itself , sigh ~

*cries slowly*
the sounds of the piano .. take me back to the day when i used to cry so hard ..
when there's a boy stand in the corner , look at the ground .. seems so confused what should he do ..
and i stop crying .. i don't want people see me with a pitiful sight,poor me or anything that makes me so weak .. i stand as a stone there ,wipe my tears and start to walk .. alone
yeah , i used to be so lonely .. i used to be no one in my side neither infront of me to guide ..
being lonely taught me how to be strong , how to solve your problems with your own self
and yeah i did .. i never do fall .. i never do down .. hardly ever , coz there's no one hold my hands ,or maybe stand me , no one ~