February 19, 2011
i really feel like i thrown away from them , i won't say who are they .. i just feel they even dun want my existence -__- really ! i tired for often feel so "I'M SO USELESS" till i find that my MOM ! always say bad words to me T____T like fool , dumb and each -___- i really hurt ! she's so mean with her words , were it have an effect for her ?? she doesn't really know it , does she know carma ?? lol *talk nonsense* but really , i feel like i want to cry T___T i really confuse of who will be listen to me ?? well i just often hear to some songs to calm myself , but it didn't really work .. it makes me feel worse. and now i really missed papa , but i hope he's okay there , he even text me and tell me a joke :) i feel better when i know that he's having fun there :D i just don't need too worry about him again ^^
i'll be okay , just not today
