August 05, 2013
:message to my future self
Dear lulu, you did it! you have walk this far and i hope you won't think you'll stop or saying "i can't" and give up. I hope you do remember about what did you say earlier in the past, that you will commit to work even harder than anyone, that you will reject every physical exhaustion. But then please don't get sick, you are a human. Please have fun as you are getting busy, do not playing around and hitting on bush. Please at least reduce yourself for mattering people, they don't help you anyway. If anyone judge you, reminding you are now ain't a high schooler anymore. You are a mature content ( i LOLed) - and you are meeting various kind of people and their statements. At that moment please do not adding any burden to your heart anymore. People have their reason if they want to hate you, but you in any possible ways can't hate them back. It won't work and never will. Smile. That's how you wash them haters away, inch by inch, little by little. As you are growing older i hope you are also mature in mind. Do not being ego and if by any chance you are sad, you know to whom and how to spill yourself. But again you have to remember how to be happy again, because not everyone gonna put you up again. You will probably believe on people lesser as you meet many by days. Don't worry, as long as you know how to play it. You are in the safe path. Please do not anymore being a moody girl and gloom yourself. Crying yourself to sleep is not a good thing. That's how nightmares keep on following you along, by any tiny chances you have please and please i beg you being a tough girl just like before. 4 years ago or it was 6 years ago, we won't care. You shall be tough and let no one put you down and drown. But don't get high as you gain your best results, be grateful but not yet satisfied. You may look down to compare yourself with them but remember you are this lucky person but then again you have to look up and you are still far underneath them. If you are by a sudden lost your confidence, screw it! You have seen your face for thousand times already and convinced that you are pretty enough to date someone. At least no one can't be better by being you. You are a clone of no one. Please forget every flaws you think you have because you have to be pretty inside you. pretty.. or i should say you are cute! and oh. please be mentally beautiful and financially beautiful if only it is possible. HAHA. So let's laugh about how you'll manage everything later :) Good luck for you. I love you and i know you love me back.
