November 19, 2013
someday you'll wake up with things inside your mind, every random things that never been in your head before. You are being wise in an instant and forgot about it in the next hour. You'll get older and 5 years later you'll look up to old photos that fortunately still exists in your laptop or your phone's memory. You'll think you should have take more photos so you could remember more of your people back before. You'll think you should have studied harder so you could perhaps study abroad and be a professor so you could make your parents proud. You'll only remember about 60 of your friends and even you'll start to be blur about their faces, even names might sound unfamiliar in the next decade. You'll reminiscence your childhood, how you are slowly getting older and being an adult and soon you are watching really dumb and stupid youngsters and how you wanna go back to that phase. You'll watching one by one of your friends getting married and having children and you will too, with someone you less expect and surprisingly you'll have to get through a hard life but it is fine because your parents are still there. How you think your parents were right because you treat your children the same as how your parents treat you. But it was too late to apologize to them. How you see people across the street and you wonder what was that someone dream job back before now? were they hoping for being an astronaut or a president? who knows? who knows that one of your friends whom always sit in the behind of the class is now one of the most successful person in a company? but perhaps they have a dark past, managed not having too much friends and might awkward when they have to meet one of the friends? You'll only keep two or three friends of your closest and not yet believe on them, because you finally learn how people is so easy to hurt and to be hurt; you carefully watch how people act. You'll think you should have gone to more places and explore more of this world because it is such a waste being young and not going to Europe or East-Asian, you'll plan out going to beaches and mountains and how you really wanna go to Japan or Paris and you should and have to go there someday. How you wish you had a pet because you wanna learn how to share love with animals and how you wish you spend more time hang out with your friends when you were in high school because spending more time with people equals to more happiness and that means you are crying less and you don't have to lock yourself in your room waiting for tomorrow to come faster.