hi ! i'm here again cz i don't have any friend to play with , my friends are too busy to listen , and too happy to help me , so yah i'm lonely
sigh ... i'm tired of this feeling .. feeling of being threwed off ,in the other side , i really feel that it is so real ?
sigh ... i wish i could survive , i wanna be a good person to others , i mean i want them to think just the way i want ! but if someone hate me , it's not really a problem , it's their problem though ..
but the fact i can't get enough till that person stop insulting meh , till they shut their mouth cz they don't know something really sure ,
judge is too easy to do . i really got mad
but therefore it's a wrong .. totally ... last night i cried .. sigh .. again ! i feel so envy about how my mom treat my friend just like her daughter , while me ? she doesn't even treat me like her ? who's her daughter huh ? me or her ? and again i missed my Papa also
i can't hold my tears yesterday , i cried when mom got sleep already and i tried to listen to some slow musics , here the tears start to flow , and i can't breath .. i just don't like how my mom always tease me , ewwww ... i'm going down ! i always think , "
oh , my stupid feeling come !"
sigh ... and once time i said this to mom "oh yeah , it's because i'm not your real daughter!" and my mom was just laugh .. doesn't she know what i feel inside ?
useless .. heyy see this beautiful music painting :) feel warmer when i watch this ^^
sigh ... i'm tired of this feeling .. feeling of being threwed off ,in the other side , i really feel that it is so real ? 
sigh ... i wish i could survive , i wanna be a good person to others , i mean i want them to think just the way i want ! but if someone hate me , it's not really a problem , it's their problem though .. 
but the fact i can't get enough till that person stop insulting meh , till they shut their mouth cz they don't know something really sure ,judge is too easy to do . i really got mad 
but therefore it's a wrong .. totally ... last night i cried .. sigh .. again ! i feel so envy about how my mom treat my friend just like her daughter , while me ? she doesn't even treat me like her ? who's her daughter huh ? me or her ? and again i missed my Papa also 
i can't hold my tears yesterday , i cried when mom got sleep already and i tried to listen to some slow musics , here the tears start to flow , and i can't breath .. i just don't like how my mom always tease me , ewwww ... i'm going down ! i always think , "oh , my stupid feeling come !" sigh ... and once time i said this to mom "oh yeah , it's because i'm not your real daughter!" and my mom was just laugh .. doesn't she know what i feel inside ?