back to my not-so-popular blog where no one barely open this and leave without any words~ tragic, LOL
anw Happy late Christmas for all friends, Chingu-deul ^^ since i didn't celebrate it so i don't have any story , krik~~
i'm just confused whether i should happy or not, New year is coming but my dad is not come home yet *sigh* i wish he'll back soon, missed him so! So we could celebrate Chinese New year together ^^
Mama bought a bag and a pair of shoes liao~ but i don't yet, LOL have to choose the very good one lo~ so i could satisfied! Gonna choose hip hop style maybeh ~ kekeke ~ inspired from fx), they're really stylish! ^^
legging and a baggy shirts fits me :) haha!! what am i ==
I don't update much cz i learn fx)'s dance lately "Gangsta Boy", a really unique dance! hahah
and i try to sing 2Ne1's song ugly~ it sure is an ugly voice, check this~
it's short and hidden~ LOl just for fun la~
and i have received my Report card, here's the result :
Religion : 93 Nationality : 81 Indonesian : 80(theory),76 English : 86(theory),80 Math : 63 Physics : 65(theory),76 Biology : 81(theory),79 Chemistry : 65(theory),78 History : 75 Arts : 78 PE : 81 IT : 94(theory),85
all grades is B, except my English is C , it's because i always make a joke to my English teacher (Mr. Squidword) LOL he's funny by the way~~ i S*ck with my exact lesson :( am i to stupid?? *sigh
hellow! i'm about to review my Monster Beat by Dr. Dre Tour with Control Talk but it's OEM and not original, but with Grade A++ ~~ :D
this is in front of the box ~ Box : 89/100
The pouch :D ~ Pouch : 95/100
The treasure xD Headset : 98/100 Bass : 90/100
althought it's not original, but the sounds similar to the real one~~
but still i hope for this one Monster Beat Lakers, Kobe Bryant Edition :D i found it really expensive, about IDR650rb up ~~ OEM for real! the original one is IDR 4,5million -______- waste money ofcourse ~~
and i bought this egg mouse yesterday xD cute eh?? hahah
i really Mad at my Mom yesterday :( she scold me in the public for a really small thing and she didn't need to do it actually. So after it i only stare at my phone and keep a distance while walk with her, i walk behind her. oh i keep saying curse after it. Cz from the morning she seems hate me that lots??! keep scolding me while she could talk it with a NORMAL voice! i ask her with a normal tone also, and she answer it with a 100000001 words -_______-" what to do what to do~ well i promise myself to not treat my future-child like my mother treat me. I need my child to respect and not hate me, it's a bad thing to scold them over and over again and in a public??!? WTF~~ they then stare me like i've killed somebody too yesterday. shame on me~~ LOL
this is the end of this Horror story : No Food Left ~~
that best moment when best friends always mock but there's no offend (;
2011 gonna end, and 2012 just gonna face ^^ but something is not right, here. *sigh* i wish i have no feeling so i won't so sensitive to people. why am i so allergic to people == LOL well i have no hopes for next year, i just want a new phone so bad O_O haha, android is enough -_-v really! and i wish there's no cold war among my friends~ i know one of us won't admit that we are in a back area, we still say we are okay! but actually no. today is my first day of final school test ^^ it's math!! well it's okay, maybe i won't get better mark on math, *hopeless ~~ wish them luck. wish us luck ^^ hehehhes ~~
*random, oh God i really wanna feel how is it watching a music concert or something like that T.T that looks fascinating!!
i love COS15
^^~~
if words could kill, i would sentences you to hell
hi there.. I'm back! i'm being an emo this lately, cz sometimes i just wanna cry out loud but i can't. SO yeah i just pretending that i'm yawning. every time i feel bad, i pretend that i'm sleepy. Gosh this world is just cruel, but have to keep living like this. You know i wanna take Design soon when i go to university, but my mom won't let me go far from ma house, like i wanna find some nice univ in Jakarta.
mom will you please let me catch my dream?
, i won't do something i don't wanna do! don't force me to take the other option. This is my choice ;(. hiks~ i don't have someone to tell. I don't want to, cz every time i try to tell, somehow people didn't really listen to it. So i just be a good listener. Maybe this is why i cry so much lately. People scold me the most. and i'm the most forgotten. sigh~ perfect life isn't it? kekeke~ stupid me
my wish 11/11/11 : i wish every body could be happier than before. No i won't be happier, i never been happier.
sometimes i think Life is perfect for many people, but not for me. but in the other side i feel this is wrong, I am good, nothing's wrong and everything's gonna be okay. the reality is
no
but then some people which is have all that i wish i have say that they want more than this and more than that, how could ?? yeah maybe i'm just too sensitive or just tired of life.
envious means we're trying to hurt others but it hurt us more instead
i got poem task! so what should i write about?? any ideas?
i thought life would never change, and i was wrong. Life has change a lot now, even us and people change. i missed my old life when everything was okay and fine as well. And now it seems really a mess now. since then i realize to not place myself to this reality. Just be in the middle of everything. I realize past will never be back, and we can't predict future. So just do what you do right now, never worry about what will coming in the future or something that has past. :D LOL. I think much today, something inspired me a lot. Even people which really is selfish could effect my mind.
wow
... tomorrow i get math exam and i have to study tonight. whoah what a busy week and still busy on next week and next again and next again. ~~ nevermind, we should no complain for what we do. Maybe everything will be easier without complaining? and think that there's someone that struggling on something right now, so why we complain while there's people who still enjoy it? :D LOLOL~~
hey! it's 1/11/11 my novemberwish is success on my biology presentation and success on every exam i got^^ Sadhu!
i really depressed much now and i confused who will i tell to, so i write here~ my mid-term exams were a mess! i got a really low grades~ only around 60-70 ~ sigh.. i never got 80/90 so far, only English left and i'm sure it must be so low! i tried my best but i can't believe i reach less than i expected, well i have to study harder now! since i have so many dreams that i wanna reach! ^^
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. ya! Girls Generation the boyz is cool eh!! x) the hairstyle and all the outfits are aweeesome :3 kekeke ~ yow gonna share something! i feel weird with my school atmosphere~ something's wrong! i mean, my friends! they're all changed. I know everything's change and this is not the first time but i feel they're all ignore us, (meh and ma friends) and the one ignore us is the other one *complicate -.-" they changed a lot! unlike when we're in the first grade~ everything's fine untill we are separated from social with science, sigh~~ this is so complicated
annyeong ^^ ~ update again, nyahahah ~~ i made a hugeonigiri today :p lol but it was broken and it broke my heart~ LOL i fill it with chicken's meat and tamagoyaki~ ngah ! and also i cover it with nori! kawaii ne ~ hahaha *fail
this is the onigiri !! (y)
i just made one cz it was hard for me to do it, it's my first onigir btw! pretty isn't it? LOL~
and these are the tamagoyaki, i just take 2 of that cz i already eat the rest! nyahaha !
i'm glad that i succeed of made this tamagoyaki, haha! but a lil dissapointed at my onigiri ~ it was so huge and flatt ~~~ hahaha but cute !
next friday got exams liao ~ first is chemistry! i doubt myself but still have to study hard~
i was in a good mood 3 minutes ago, and someone destroy it in a second. what a perfect mad! tell me this or that. can you just shut up cz i really stressed out right now, dammit ~~
nothing change~ school was always tiring and also homies was boring. no one can really communicate well to meh~ and all people are just too selfish~ LOL so i talk here loh, ngahaha
Mom told me to get part time job! sick! she know i have no time but still ask me to work, you know i've been think about it for so long time. but i couldn't get any ideas what job fits a student like me~ geez! depressing me a lot..
i feel like crying these two days~ i dun know why i just wanna crying out loud! somebody lend me your shoulders! gah ~~ if only i have someone that could understand me easily~ sigh
i failed at my last physic test again ~ tired enough ~ i've study hard but still i can't do the questions, what a retard (me). gaaah ! i hate my lapie, it lags lots ! and got HANG so much ! i wish for new one~~ LOLOL..
still sad of my tiny score i got this morning, it down my mood so bad! and and someone trying to make me envy, i dun know why or maybe s/he just trying to show off, sigh ~~ why can't i got what i want ? and i fail a lot at my subjects! cih ~~i can't relax now, and again ! parent hurts me. not a big deal but hurt me so deep ! siao liao meh ! keke ~~ i'm such an EMO ==
Life could be Game Over but you still would Try Again ~~
annyeong ! i really envy with my other blogger friends .____. who have a really exciting life! i mean, something really happen to them, me ? just a normal life, sigh ~
i really tired of my indonesian assignments, one is not done yet and come another one, but lucky me i've done with the first one, hahaha ~ i got a real bad score on math and english , nah ! my english down to 75 .. hah ! and math i got .... under 60 == geez ~ i really dumb at math ..
hey i wonder i could get a part time job but with my full schedule in my school it seems so hopeless .. our school take our most time and it seems forbid us to take another good activities , and i hate that i have to bring lots of HEAVY books everyday , and no holiday in saturday , so there's no quotes saying Thank God It's Friday for us , so shame !
i saw another students that is in a pharmacy school ~ and i see their uniforms , i really want one like that , maybe i want a school like that ! seriously .. and and once i got finish my school , i'll take pharmacy majority aar ~~ in UP ( universitas pancasila ) . wish me wish me !!
hey i got another present form my friend! a Winnie the Pooh doll , so cute arh ! haha .. can't wait for another september .. LOL next year is my sweet 17th ! will get my Driver licence and my KTP !! hahaha , lalala ~~~
nest 7th October have got exams liao ~ so fast ! i wish i could do it well la , i feels so weird when Social class got better marks than us in Science class, maybe our lessons are too hard ? or what .. so i got shock when they got above 80 in math , and us ! only 2 Genius that got 94 and 89, yeah ! they're my Einstein friend who got a talent at counting. when will i got a brain like that uh ? wkakka !
and and ! i decide to change my skin. i really love Jung Nayeong 's design ! she really good at designing a korean style blogskins !! (y). i wonder if there's a song in my blog , cz i can't hear any song when i open my blog ~
and i want to change my link ! (again) my friend suggest me some of these names :
Jellybean.bs.com
frozenyogurt.bs.com
midnightforest.bs.com
blindeye.bs.com
pastelshoes.bs.com
pastelbiscuit.bs.com
MIEAYAM.bs.com (silly uh == what name is that ngeh !)
maybe i'll pick Jellybean or froyo ! hahaha .. still wondering ~~ maybe i'll change it into ferriswheel.bs.com (y) i really love ferris wheel ! hahaha
hi ! i'm here again cz i don't have any friend to play with , my friends are too busy to listen , and too happy to help me , so yah i'm lonely sigh ... i'm tired of this feeling .. feeling of being threwed off ,in the other side , i really feel that it is so real ? sigh ... i wish i could survive , i wanna be a good person to others , i mean i want them to think just the way i want ! but if someone hate me , it's not really a problem , it's their problem though .. but the fact i can't get enough till that person stop insulting meh , till they shut their mouth cz they don't know something really sure ,judge is too easy to do . i really got mad but therefore it's a wrong .. totally ... last night i cried .. sigh .. again ! i feel so envy about how my mom treat my friend just like her daughter , while me ? she doesn't even treat me like her ? who's her daughter huh ? me or her ? and again i missed my Papa also i can't hold my tears yesterday , i cried when mom got sleep already and i tried to listen to some slow musics , here the tears start to flow , and i can't breath .. i just don't like how my mom always tease me , ewwww ... i'm going down ! i always think , "oh , my stupid feeling come !"sigh ... and once time i said this to mom "oh yeah , it's because i'm not your real daughter!" and my mom was just laugh .. doesn't she know what i feel inside ? useless .. heyy see this beautiful music painting :) feel warmer when i watch this ^^
yeah it feels kinda sad when someone upset cz of your wrong words , beside it didn't means anything , but it hurt so much , sigh .. what should i do then ?? i'm sure someone is talking much about my bad words earlier , she won't forgive me ! oh gosh , noone ever want to forgive me when i did a mistake .. - - that's why i can't sleep properly last night , *dies
ohh~~ yeah it's just a misunderstanding -w- she got wrong of my words,i don't wanna feel any bad at her feeling , should face it wisely thought *sigh
beside , heyy ! i've learnt driving a car for this two days ;) i'll learn till this sunday >:D yay ! drive a car is so fun XD i enjoyed it , but but i didn't do my homework yet D: i think i should do it tonight X) won't too late too *sigh
getting spoiled again ! DX haiz .. it means i'm pouting all day and i don't like it !
mom seems hate me a lot ! she blame me this and that ! these and those !
all and everything are my mistakes ! OMG ! i really don't know what to do leh
i'm just pouting at her ! gah == i really really can't wait for tomorrow so i couldn't see her and be blamed overtime ! LOL seriously
she seems like this since her new job in clothes ==
nyeh ... WTH ! i just wishing her happiness and longlive this year
and NO MAD-NESS at herself la == she always said bad things abt me and compared me to others while i really had tried to do my best ! and now my body's hurt ! tottaly ! esp. my arm D: it's because yesterday , when we played badminton , huffie ..
oh ! and .. i dun know why i eat so much this days lately
i'm scared of getting fater O.O and chubbier D: gezz ..
i hupe cz of school i wont eat too much ;D
hahahaha !!! hey . i'm lazzy for using a banner , but sometimes i'll use :) i just too lazy now .. erm , and
yeah maybe i won't be so update thru this school time , but i'll try to update when i have time and have a creepy story i think, LOLs
oh oh ! and now i really unhappy (abit) wif my friends == as usual , they seems IGNORED me , :( i really hate it ==
maybe i won't bo so talkactive anymore wif them , i'll be so brokenheart when they're not hear at me , mwahahah ! so that's why ,
they hate me ;D
p//s : give me Hello Kitty Stuffs in my b`day kay ?? ;D hello kitty is my new doraemon !
hi , good afternoon anw , oh so hot today , and i'm not feel so good .
mom spoiled me this morning , and i really late at wake up too . hmmph , i'm so lame la ==
she blamed me tis and this or that and also those's .. yeah that are my fault and i'm just cheer myself up :) haha , i pretending not listening at her , LOL .. how dare i am XD
so i just make myself happy too , i bought ice cream magnum , my fav ! i bought the almond one , yes it's really yummy la ~
and i dun taking a nap this noon , i'm too lazy ==
friday will be my school , oh ! i just want to change my days ahead ..
i will be rarely on9 in weekday .. maybe i'll just on9 in weekend ?? (like friday // saturday and sunday) hmmm .. i just hope i can do it :D cz i want to have my good grades , better than my repot card before ( first term)
i want to take science major this june :) wish me luck eh ..
and i want to saving money :3 so i don't need to ask my mum for a money ==
and and , awhile ago .. i just check my fb and WTF == i saw a pic with , you know the case between malaysia and indonesia == it pops out again to my fb :(
i just sad when someone said a bad things to each others , indonesian to malaysian and malaysian to indonesian
my future plan :
become a president of my country , LOLs
i want to catch my own star :3 (become a pharmacist)
i want to take a part time job when it's my time to get it !!
i want to make my parents happy (!)
decorate my own home and my own room !!
escape from here and find the right place to stay :D
not all of them lah , i'm just too boring :( and .... curently sad .. haiz !!
tomorrow my friends got plan to play badminton .. but i think i won't come , cz ...
sigh .. i wont make my mom mad anymore lah ==
i just want to go back to school so i can keep apart from her ..
hihi , so cruel i am ..
but sure , since she got a job , we had no time for spending time together , i'm feeling more alone than before , and then she always come home and maybe will spoild me !!!
so that's why i often turn off my laptop when she came , hah .. chicken ?? yes lah ==
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today i cried D= ~~ i remember HIM again ==" what a pain that he alive [again] in my mind yet my heart too .. althought i dun want to rmb him again , but he always there in my mind D=
today was speech contest and he join too , when i was on the stage ,i see that he looks at me ~ what the ...
i shok and suddenly i remind of his eyes .. D= oh my i felt away T.T
he won the contest and i just reach 2nd place
i missed him a lot ): haizzz ~
i just wondering if he still rmb me or not ,
i cried when i rmb the time that he said that he loves me and each D= painfull that now it has gone away ~
and never come back )=
tomorrow will be the end of the day .. next is holidays ~
i wanna write something but ... i don't have something that have something something nice in it :x (what am i talking about)
sport day was begin today ~ and will be end on saturday soon (ending with pensi)
tottaly ~ i'm really bored and tired of it :x i plan to not go to school tmrro` cz i'm lazy of the works and such O.O||| yea ~ osis !! hikx
i'm just being alone now time .. and i got nothing to do .. no message from any people so... it's really sucks :(
i can't even smile in this last month of the year .. will i geting alone for a long time in this new year ? :( i hup not de
oh , the banner above is so sweet :) i remember of someone ~ but i just realize that he's no death yet in my mind
O.O why should i think about him ~
ein ... (don't mind about what i'm writing about , i'm mad this day .emo i think)
no people around a :( no friend that save my life from my loneliness
aigo .. i surely really want my holidays D:
i wish my parents will stay here with me , without go anywhere
i really want to spend a lifetime with them :(( i missed mama .. i missed papa ~ don't let me alone .. i love you i love you
mama and papa are so busy of their works .. mama often comes home in the late night and she always find me wrong ! she always mad of me , i dun know why :(
but aside it , i really like her madness ,, i never fell any alone when i hear it :|
althru it's so hurt ~
maybe it's my another cravings of having a great great time wif them ^^
my another cravings again are ::
•fun hulidays with mama,papa and my bro ^^
•made them proud and care about my school marks
•i want they see me , my performance in d'school .. (i hupe so)
why mama papa don't really care about me :( is getting busy keep both of you away from us ? ma . pa .. i wish both of you are happy de ^^ always happy and get a fit body .. if you know that i care a lots , i'm really happy of it
i just can say it thru my heart (i love you dad,mom)
sigh ... i'm tired of this feeling .. feeling of being threwed off ,in the other side , i really feel that it is so real ? 
sigh ... i wish i could survive , i wanna be a good person to others , i mean i want them to think just the way i want ! but if someone hate me , it's not really a problem , it's their problem though .. 
but the fact i can't get enough till that person stop insulting meh , till they shut their mouth cz they don't know something really sure ,judge is too easy to do . i really got mad 
but therefore it's a wrong .. totally ... last night i cried .. sigh .. again ! i feel so envy about how my mom treat my friend just like her daughter , while me ? she doesn't even treat me like her ? who's her daughter huh ? me or her ? and again i missed my Papa also 
i can't hold my tears yesterday , i cried when mom got sleep already and i tried to listen to some slow musics , here the tears start to flow , and i can't breath .. i just don't like how my mom always tease me , ewwww ... i'm going down ! i always think , "oh , my stupid feeling come !" sigh ... and once time i said this to mom "oh yeah , it's because i'm not your real daughter!" and my mom was just laugh .. doesn't she know what i feel inside ? 
