June 04, 2013

VIA

Michael has wasted his 2 blogposts for sending me message. lol thanks for this friend of mine who gave me inspiration for writing more of storyline. I am no a good writer, not yet. But i could make sadist moments like killing almost 20 people in a blink of an eye. As easy as 1 2 3 and sure I'm heartless ;_; kekeke~~ I'm addicted for books yet sometimes i abandon them, poor my babies ;; mama still love you as ever. 

Can you imagine a girl with not a really tall height, and tanned skin. She has slanted eyes also long fingers. She got pimples this recently cz stressing everything up! so i think she's not as pretty as her most friends. But you always could spot her, not by her appearance but more with her quietness. She witness almost everything while no one even realize her existence, but sure she hide everything, only maybe if someone ask about something, she knows. More than everyone would give you information. Some people think her as crazy, while she calls herself as her. 
Some people might find this kind of story is like a leaf on autumn. They are everywhere. But believe me, this kind of story is more realistic than you wish your life would be.

You think you would open up to everyone passing without being judged? you lied. As fine as someone who always help you, they still whine and complain about you in a slightest way. Even in the end they say it's okay. In this world you can't be partial. Only good with someone you think you can use them as. Friends are more than what they are. 


I was writing something about knocking sound in my last post and here's what i actually hear above my bedroom. (now)
dug... dug... dug... in a low motion but hard and strong. the fuckery is that ;; I never wish it was Chuckie who did it. God is grace please let them free from my home in a peace. You would never happy to bother this happy soul. lol : )

Have you ever been wanting to be good enough? I know it is kinda ungrateful one but you always feel that you aren't enough for everyone to admit. It is like society won't give you a second glance if you can't be smart in also dressing. Yet you aren't sorry for not good enough. Because you are counted as lucky when you see someone below you. How is that suppose to be? ; A ;

anyway, all posts above is not linked to each other, i just wanna make this post longer and full and fat  HAHAHA. Because i wanna write more and more to upvote my English lmao.  < / 3 I keep on writing what's on my mind but still can't find the right answers. Bet everything is not up for right or false. *stretch head* I am so pity when i over think and can't make up things. duh #isdumb. IF you find any grammatical errors, pardon me and you can always teach my what you got if you think you are clever than me. I am not that stupid okei.. I only sound like so smartass muahahaha!! no kidding. I am in my progress of learning. n w n hehehs! 



Loves for all who deserve.

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March 01, 2011


WEEEEE !!!! i'm ready for the exam !!! (actually nope)
i missed my old post with sooo many pic on it , i'm just kinda confused what pic should i post , since my life is not too exciting -__-
well i'm just gonna post some quotes that might be usefull :3 hehe .. and sometimes pic ! ^x^


hey ! have you watch this ??? XD


some of peeps dun like it , but i'm so damn like it ! XD she's so sexy and stylish !!! WOOOO :D
and this totally cool !!!!
i never tried this one ! but drawing with upside down is normal :D LOVE THIS !! YEAH !!
and for the last , i'll post this :)

sweet couple :3

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December 26, 2010

(img @ Perfect Memories)

i just got so many gifts from my affies :D
see again ~ ^w^





































OMG :O i really really want to change my self as well == my old me is soooooo dummy , no one can respect me >:( hm , should i be cruel huh ?? and i really hate annoying ppl >:O hoah ~
maybe don't be so kind to some ppl ??? == hizzz , anything la :O
oh oh !! and i've read a magazine ! i read some famous movies soon in 2011 , seems so fun :D
there're red riding hood on march 2011

based on fairytales and it's a bit horoor ?? i think so :O
ow , and cars 2 sounds will be cute too ?? /:O hihi ^^
and i don't watch toy story 3 yet D: ooooooooouuuuuuuuuft ~~~ i want DDX


most wanted movies in 2011 ;
●harry potter 7 part 2
●red riding hood
●cars 2
●the smurfs
●rio
have to watch XD have to save money so can watch it all , woooooooooooofieeeeeees~
hm .. i kinda want to watch tron legacy n rapunzel also The Chronicles of Narnia: The Voyage of the Dawn Treader n HP7 part 1 ( i don't watch it yet D: pitty ar) gonna buy the DVD lar == haiz ~~~

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December 24, 2010

(img @ Perfect Memories)

konbanwa minna-sama ^w^ today's christmas eve ne ~
wishing a happiness for all who celebrate it
so .. so .. today i'm really happy too yo ^w^ cz holidays` begin XO
tomorrow my mom also dad have a holiday too :) i hope we go somewhere XD
uu .. uu ~ my banner in the left looks so kawaii ne :P
sa ~ i receive 3 gifts ^w^ see ~~










this from sheryl



this from Tara



and ,


this from Jacque

hen ke ai ma ~~ XD i really like it , so for the feedback , i give my affies this ^w^


affies christmas

big big gift ^w^ i hope you like it ~ and sorry for the earlier new year greeting ,
i'm just too happy to face this new year of life :O excited ^^


so , not too much that happen nowadays , i wish everyone is happy and i wish i could find my happiness too , byeee ~~






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December 17, 2010


(Source @ Yesterday's Fate)

i join Tara's january SOTM !!






Rules
You cannot have a private blog.

No vulgarities or obscene pictures.

No hiatus or MIAs or anything similar.

The banner must be found somewhere on your site.

You might credit ANY resources that you took from. If I found out that you didn't, you will be disqualified.

No blog shops, and resource sites (sorry!)

You MUST post about this site and recommend (: If not, your marks might be lower that someone else's even though your layout is about the same as his/hers.

The language you use is ENGLISH or Malay or Indonesian


Points to note
This contest must have the minimum of 10 participants, and a maximum of 30 participants.

Link the banner to CUBEEMELODIES.BLOGSPOT.COM

Post about this contest ONCE, simplicity, kawaiiness, color combination, creativity, neatness, your popularity, originallity, and the way you treat your taggers and followers (affies too)

Procedures~
leave message at my tagboard with the concept : Name/URL/I want join SOTM
Post about this contest AT ONCE when you receive the confirmation message

Important Dates
Joining- From NOW till 19 January / when the maximum no. of participants reaches.

Judging from 19 January - 28 January (I'll stalk you, also with another judger)
28 January - 30 January time to make a choice for the winner
Result out in 31 January or 1 February or when I finish to make the gifts

Judicature
Me (to stalk you)
My Teacher (He is designer of my school's site)
My friend (Who has good sense, more than one)

Prizes~

Winners (1st - 3rd ) will get a SIGGY, BUTTON, BANNER, and an ADVERTISING SPOT( 3 months, 2 months and 1 month respectively )

Merits( 4th - 6th ) will get a SIGGY, BUTTON, and BANNER.

Another winners (Pinkish Blog, Cutest Blog, Best Posting, Colourfull Blog, etc.) will get a BUTTON and BANNER.

SPECIAL WINNER (Friendly Blogger) will get SIGGY, BANNER and an ADVERTISING SPOT (forever)

Rest of the participants will get a SIGGY and BANNER.



LIFE GOES HERE ~~
today i cried D= ~~ i remember HIM again ==" what a pain that he alive [again] in my mind yet my heart too .. althought i dun want to rmb him again , but he always there in my mind D=
today was speech contest and he join too , when i was on the stage ,i see that he looks at me ~ what the ...
i shok and suddenly i remind of his eyes .. D= oh my i felt away T.T
he won the contest and i just reach 2nd place
i missed him a lot ): haizzz ~
i just wondering if he still rmb me or not ,
i cried when i rmb the time that he said that he loves me and each D= painfull that now it has gone away ~
and never come back )=
tomorrow will be the end of the day .. next is holidays ~
haiz T.T i can't stand my tears ~~
how long should i hide all of this feeling ?
forever ?
lying to everyone that i'm just okay ?
i hope i'll be happy , even if i can't D=

i'm not in a good mood de
bye ~

sorry ^^"

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December 15, 2010

(Source @ Yesterday's Fate)

i wanna write something but ... i don't have something that have something something nice in it :x (what am i talking about)
sport day was begin today ~ and will be end on saturday soon (ending with pensi)
tottaly ~ i'm really bored and tired of it :x i plan to not go to school tmrro` cz i'm lazy of the works and such O.O||| yea ~ osis !! hikx
i'm just being alone now time .. and i got nothing to do .. no message from any people so... it's really sucks :(
i can't even smile in this last month of the year .. will i geting alone for a long time in this new year ? :( i hup not de
oh , the banner above is so sweet :) i remember of someone ~ but i just realize that he's no death yet in my mind
O.O why should i think about him ~
ein ... (don't mind about what i'm writing about , i'm mad this day .emo i think)
no people around a :( no friend that save my life from my loneliness
aigo .. i surely really want my holidays D:
i wish my parents will stay here with me , without go anywhere
i really want to spend a lifetime with them :(( i missed mama .. i missed papa ~ don't let me alone .. i love you i love you
mama and papa are so busy of their works .. mama often comes home in the late night and she always find me wrong ! she always mad of me , i dun know why :(
but aside it , i really like her madness ,, i never fell any alone when i hear it :|
althru it's so hurt ~
maybe it's my another cravings of having a great great time wif them ^^
my another cravings again are ::
•fun hulidays with mama,papa and my bro ^^
•made them proud and care about my school marks
•i want they see me , my performance in d'school .. (i hupe so)

why mama papa don't really care about me :( is getting busy keep both of you away from us ? ma . pa .. i wish both of you are happy de ^^ always happy and get a fit body .. if you know that i care a lots , i'm really happy of it
i just can say it thru my heart (i love you dad,mom)

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December 12, 2010

(Source @ Yesterday's Fate)
my post will be a lil bit weird from now on .. errrr .. howdy ^^ i'm so messy now
yes ~ new skin (again) i really like the snowy above and .. it's just simple :)
and also neat ? ^^ hihi ~
what should i give more ,with this skin ? any idea ? :D i'm not really want to put my pic on ~
i'll post mine in entries xD hyaaha ~
tonight .. i'm lonely ~ no pulsa , lol ~ i can't sms pengyou or someone :x (epic)
i'm too lazy to prepare my speech contest or to prepare my books for tmrro`
== arrrraaaaaa .. why don holidays meh ? tired of those school stuff :(

my life is hardly simple
i wanna share a vid :) admiring EPIK HIGH-umbrella now ^^





the lyrics ::


어느새 빗물이

oneusae pitmuli

내 발목에 고이고

nae balmoke koyigo

참았던 눈물이

chamatton nunmuli

내 눈가에 고이고

nae nungae kohigo

I cry

텅빈 방엔 시계소리

tongpin bangen shigyosori

지붕과 입 맞추는 비의 소리

shibongwa ip machuneun biwi sori

오랜만에 입은

oraenmane ibeun

코트 주머니속에 반지

koteu chumonisoge panchi

손틈새 스며드는 memory

sonteumsae seumyodeuneun memory

며칠만에 나서보는 밤의 서울

myochlmane nasoboneun pami seoul

고인 빗물은 작은 거울

goin pitmuleun chaneun koul

그 속에 난 비틀거리며

geu sone nan pikeulgorimyo

아프니까 그대 없이 난

apeunigga geudae obni nan

한쪽 다리가 짧은 의자

hanchok daliga chapleun uicha

둘이서 쓰긴 작았던 우산

dulishi sseugin chagatton usan

차가운 세상에 섬 같았던 우산

chagaun sesange som gatatton usan

이젠 너무 크고 어색해

yichen nomu geuko osaenhae

그대 곁에 늘 젖어있던 왼쪽어깨

geutae gyote neul chotoyitton winchokottae

기억의 무게에 고개 숙여보니

gionui mukehe kokae sukyoponi

버려진듯 풀어진 내 신발끈

poryochindeut pulochin nae shinbalggeun

허나 곁엔 오직 비와 바람 없다

hona gyoten oshin piwa param opda

잠시라도 우산을 들어 줄 사람

chamsirado usaneul deul chul saram

and I cry

어느새 빗물이

oneusae pitmuli

내 발목에 고이고

nae palmoge goyigo

참았던 눈물이

chamatton nunmuli

내 눈가에 고이고

nae nungae goyigo

I cry

그대는 내 머리위에 우산

geudaeneun nae moriwie usan

어깨위에 차가운 비 내리는 밤

oggaewie chagaun bi naerineun bam

내 곁에 그대가

nae gyote geutaega

습관이 되어버린 나

seupgwani dwioborin na

난 그대없이는 안되요

nan geudaeopineun andwiyo

alone in the rain

하늘의 눈물이 고인 땅

haneului nunmuli koin ttang

별을 감춘 구름에 보인 달

pyoreul gamchun guleume boin dal

골목길 홀로 외로운 구두 소리

golmongil hollo uiloun gudu sori

메아리에 돌아보며

mearie dolabomyo

가슴 졸인 맘

gaseum cholin mam

나를 꼭 닮은 그림자

nareul ggon damreun geulimcha

서로가 서로를 볼 수 없었던

soroga soroleul pol su opsotton

우리가

uliga

이제야 둘인가

icheya dulinga

대답을 그리다

daedapeul geurida

머리 속 그림과 대답을 흐린다

mori sok geulimgwa daedapeul heurinda

내 눈엔 너무 컸던 우산

nae nunen nomu kotton usan

날 울린 세상을 향해 접던 우산

nal urrin sesangeul hyanghae chopton usan

영원의 약속에 활짝 폈던 우산

yongwonui yaksoke hwalchak pyotton usan

이제는 찢겨진 우산

icheneun chitgyashin usan

아래 두 맘

arae du mam

돌아봐도 이제는 없겠죠

dolabwado icheneun opgettchyo

두 손은 주머니 속 깊게 넣겠죠

du soneun chumoni sok gipge nohgettchyo

이리저리 자유롭게 걸어도

iricholi chayulopge golodo

두 볼은 가랑비도 쉽게 젖겠죠

du poleun galangbido swipge chotgettchyo

어느새 빗물이

oneusae pimuli

내 발목에 고이고

nae balmoke goyigo

참았던 눈물이

chamatton nunmuli

내 눈가에 고이고

nae nungae goyigo

I cry

그대는 내 머리위에 우산

geudaeneun nae moriwie usan

어깨위에 차가운 비 내리는 밤

oggaewie chagaun bi naerineun bam

내 곁에 그대가

nae gyote geudaega

습관이 되어버린 나

seupgwani duioborin na

난 그대없이는 안되요

nan geudaeopsineun andwiyo

alone in the rain

난 열어놨어 내 맘의 문을

nan yoronwao nae mamui muneul

그댄 내 머리 위에 우산

geudaen nae mori uie usan

그대의 그림자는 나의 그늘

geudaeui geurimchaneun nawi usan

그댄 내 머리 위에 우산

geudaen nae mori uie usan

난 열어놨어 내 맘의 문을

nan yoronwao nae mamui muneul

그댄 내 머리 위에 우산

geudaen nae mori uie usan

그대의 그림자는 나의 그늘

geudaeui geurimchaneun nawi usan

그댄 내 머리 위에 우산

geudaen nae mori uie usan

나의 곁에 그대가 없기에

naui gyote geudaega opgie

내 창밖에 우산을 들고

nae champakke usaneul deulgo

기다리던 그대

kidaridon geudae

I cry

그대는 내 머리위에 우산

geudaeneun nae moli uie usan

어깨위에 차가운 비 내리는 밤

okkaeuie chagaun bi naerineun bam

내 곁에 그대가

nae gyote geudaega

습관이 되어버린 나

seupgani duioborin na

난 그대없이는 안되요

nan geudaeopineun andwiyo

그대는 내 머리위에 우산

geudaeneun nae moli uie usan

어깨위에 차가운 비 내리는 밤

oggaewie chagaun bi naerineun bam

내 곁에 그대가

nae gyote geudaega

없는 반쪽의 세상

opneun pamchonui sesang

그댄 나 없이는 안돼요

geudaen na opsineun andwiyo

forever in the rain

translation

Suddenly the rain has gathered at my feet
The tears that I held in are welling around my eyes
I cry

The sound of the clock in an empty room
The sound of the rain hitting the roof and my lips
The ring inside the coat I haven’t worn in a while
The gathering memory
The Seoul I haven’t seen in a few days
The gathered rain are like little mirrors
Within them I struggle because it hurts
Without you I’m like a chair with a short leg
The umbrella that was too small for the both of us
The umbrella that shielded us from the cold world
Now seems much to big and awkward.
Your left shoulder always got so wet
I hang my head with the weight of the memories
My shoelaces are untied, undone
Now all thats next to me is the rain and wind (not there)
a person that will hold my umbrella for a while
and I cry
A puddle of rain has gathered around my feet
The tears that I held in are welling around my eyes
I cry

chorus
You are the umbrella above my head
The cold rain falling above my shoulders in night
You next to me has become a habit
I cant be without you
alone in the rain

The ground has gathered the tears of the sky
I can see the moon behind the star blocking clouds
The sound of lonely shoes echo down the alley
I turn around
Its just heart wrenching night
A shadow that looks just like me
The us that couldn’t see us
Are we two now?
The answer is lonely
The picture in my mind and my response is vague
The umbrella that was too big in my eyes
The umbrella I close facing the world that made me cry
The umbrella that I opened with the promise of forever
Under the now ripped umbrella are two hearts
I guess even though I turn you wont be there
I put my two hands deep inside my pockets
Even though I walk carefree
My two cheeks will easily become wet
Suddenly the rain has gathered at my feet
The tears that I held in are welling around my eyes
I cry

*chorus

I opened the door of my heart
you’re the umbrella above my head
You are my shadow, I am your shade
You’re the umbrella above my head
I opened the door of my heart
you’re the umbrella above my head
You are my shadow, I am your shade
You’re the umbrella above my head

Because you are not next to me
I waited outside with an umbrella
outside your house
I cry

*chorus

You are the umbrella above my head
The cold rain falling above my shoulders in night
The world is in two pieces without you next to me
you cant be without me
forever in the rain

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