June 04, 2013
Michael has wasted his 2 blogposts for sending me message. lol thanks for this friend of mine who gave me inspiration for writing more of storyline. I am no a good writer, not yet. But i could make sadist moments like killing almost 20 people in a blink of an eye. As easy as 1 2 3 and sure I'm heartless ;_; kekeke~~ I'm addicted for books yet sometimes i abandon them, poor my babies ;; mama still love you as ever.
Can you imagine a girl with not a really tall height, and tanned skin. She has slanted eyes also long fingers. She got pimples this recently cz stressing everything up! so i think she's not as pretty as her most friends. But you always could spot her, not by her appearance but more with her quietness. She witness almost everything while no one even realize her existence, but sure she hide everything, only maybe if someone ask about something, she knows. More than everyone would give you information. Some people think her as crazy, while she calls herself as her.
Some people might find this kind of story is like a leaf on autumn. They are everywhere. But believe me, this kind of story is more realistic than you wish your life would be.
You think you would open up to everyone passing without being judged? you lied. As fine as someone who always help you, they still whine and complain about you in a slightest way. Even in the end they say it's okay. In this world you can't be partial. Only good with someone you think you can use them as. Friends are more than what they are.
I was writing something about knocking sound in my last post and here's what i actually hear above my bedroom. (now)
dug... dug... dug... in a low motion but hard and strong. the fuckery is that ;; I never wish it was Chuckie who did it. God is grace please let them free from my home in a peace. You would never happy to bother this happy soul. lol : )
Have you ever been wanting to be good enough? I know it is kinda ungrateful one but you always feel that you aren't enough for everyone to admit. It is like society won't give you a second glance if you can't be smart in also dressing. Yet you aren't sorry for not good enough. Because you are counted as lucky when you see someone below you. How is that suppose to be? ; A ;
anyway, all posts above is not linked to each other, i just wanna make this post longer and full and fat HAHAHA. Because i wanna write more and more to upvote my English lmao. < / 3 I keep on writing what's on my mind but still can't find the right answers. Bet everything is not up for right or false. *stretch head* I am so pity when i over think and can't make up things. duh #isdumb. IF you find any grammatical errors, pardon me and you can always teach my what you got if you think you are clever than me. I am not that stupid okei.. I only sound like so smartass muahahaha!! no kidding. I am in my progress of learning. n w n hehehs!
Loves for all who deserve.Labels: #me, 2013, blog, holidays, life, year
January 31, 2011
oh friends i just want to be my own self , without sadness and i want to keep calm whenever the wind blow me up .. to keep going up the stairs whenever people ask me to stop .. even though i feel like a dumb right now , friends now are just go away from my sight .. but i have to keep strong ... and keep smile ..
oh i just want to be a good person , and i want to be myself , my true self ..
even if i'm tired of trying , but i can't stop right now
and i know if i'm going down today , i always have a chance to going up someday ... and if i fail , i never lack of opportunity .. chance is anywhere anytime i want to take ...
quotes beside is really true ^^ heheh
now all i have to do is to stop this tears and sad .. start the hopes and dreams , and i'll draw my own happiness , and people dont need to stand infront of me , :) cz i can stand by myself ..
now i hope i can do it all , i don't want to hear anger or anything bad .. i want peace .. hehe
or i wont say anything bad , even how bad my day is , i will go with peace and let the anger go :)
cz i tired of being mad and too serious .. jealousy also
jealousy is a terrible sickness i've ever met :D
Labels: #buddha, #me, #peace
oh friends i just want to be my own self , without sadness and i want to keep calm whenever the wind blow me up .. to keep going up the stairs whenever people ask me to stop ..