that best moment when best friends always mock but there's no offend (;

2011 gonna end, and 2012 just gonna face ^^ but something is not right, here. *sigh* i wish i have no feeling so i won't so sensitive to people. why am i so allergic to people == LOL
well i have no hopes for next year, i just want a new phone so bad O_O haha, android is enough -_-v really! and i wish there's no cold war among my friends~ i know one of us won't admit that we are in a back area, we still say we are okay! but actually no.
today is my first day of final school test ^^ it's math!! well it's okay, maybe i won't get better mark on math, *hopeless ~~ wish them luck. wish us luck ^^ hehehhes ~~

*random, oh God i really wanna feel how is it watching a music concert or something like that T.T that looks fascinating!!

i love COS15

^^~~



if words could kill, i would sentences you to hell

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I'm about to upgrade my iPod touch to IOS 5.0.1 and wtf is this?? cool! i don't need to sleep ? LOL
this is worse.
heyyal and I'm about to practice cover dance refers to The boys by Girls' Generation :D wish meh! long time no dance liao. i used to dance so much when i was 10~ kinda like that, so long guys! this is a shortahdates. anyway! i missed my

dad

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hi there.. I'm back! i'm being an emo this lately, cz sometimes i just wanna cry out loud but i can't. SO yeah i just pretending that i'm yawning. every time i feel bad, i pretend that i'm sleepy. Gosh this world is just cruel, but have to keep living like this.
You know i wanna take Design soon when i go to university, but my mom won't let me go far from ma house, like i wanna find some nice univ in Jakarta.

mom will you please let me catch my dream?

, i won't do something i don't wanna do! don't force me to take the other option. This is my choice ;(. hiks~
i don't have someone to tell. I don't want to, cz every time i try to tell, somehow people didn't really listen to it. So i just be a good listener. Maybe this is why i cry so much lately. People scold me the most. and i'm the most forgotten. sigh~ perfect life isn't it? kekeke~ stupid me

my wish 11/11/11 : i wish every body could be happier than before. No i won't be happier, i never been happier.

sometimes i think Life is perfect for many people, but not for me. but in the other side i feel this is wrong, I am good, nothing's wrong and everything's gonna be okay. the reality is

no

but then some people which is have all that i wish i have say that they want more than this and more than that, how could ?? yeah maybe i'm just too sensitive or just tired of life.

envious means we're trying to hurt others but it hurt us more instead

i got poem task! so what should i write about??
any ideas?

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i thought life would never change, and i was wrong. Life has change a lot now, even us and people change. i missed my old life when everything was okay and fine as well. And now it seems really a mess now. since then i realize to not place myself to this reality. Just be in the middle of everything. I realize past will never be back, and we can't predict future. So just do what you do right now, never worry about what will coming in the future or something that has past. :D LOL. I think much today, something inspired me a lot. Even people which really is selfish could effect my mind.

wow

... tomorrow i get math exam and i have to study tonight. whoah what a busy week and still busy on next week and next again and next again. ~~ nevermind, we should no complain for what we do. Maybe everything will be easier without complaining? and think that there's someone that struggling on something right now, so why we complain while there's people who still enjoy it? :D LOLOL~~


hey! it's 1/11/11 my novemberwish is success on my biology presentation and success on every exam i got^^ Sadhu!

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omo ~

i really depressed much now and i confused who will i tell to, so i write here~
my mid-term exams were a mess! i got a really low grades~ only around 60-70 ~ sigh.. i never got 80/90 so far,
only English left and i'm sure it must be so low! i tried my best but i can't believe i reach less than i expected,
well i have to study harder now! since i have so many dreams that i wanna reach! ^^

화이팅

. ya! Girls Generation the boyz is cool eh!! x) the hairstyle and all the outfits are aweeesome :3 kekeke ~
yow gonna share something! i feel weird with my school atmosphere~ something's wrong! i mean, my friends! they're all changed.
I know everything's change and this is not the first time but i feel they're all ignore us, (meh and ma friends)
and the one ignore us is the other one *complicate -.-"
they changed a lot! unlike when we're in the first grade~ everything's fine untill we are separated from social with science, sigh~~ this is so complicated

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annyeong ^^ ~ update again, nyahahah ~~ i made a hugeonigiri today :p lol but it was broken and it broke my heart~ LOL i fill it with chicken's meat and tamagoyaki~ ngah ! and also i cover it with nori! kawaii ne ~ hahaha *fail

this is the onigiri !! (y)

i just made one cz it was hard for me to do it, it's my first onigir btw! pretty isn't it? LOL~

and these are the tamagoyaki, i just take 2 of that cz i already eat the rest! nyahaha !

i'm glad that i succeed of made this tamagoyaki, haha! but a lil dissapointed at my onigiri ~ it was so huge and flatt ~~~ hahaha but cute !

next friday got exams liao ~ first is chemistry! i doubt myself but still have to study hard~

anw, i have to go! jaa ~~

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annyeong :D i've been exciting of my new app in my iPod~ so i edited my pics more often, check this out ;)

which is better? LOL both are worse :p ngahaha!

and these ::

it is all me ! copyright :3 hehehehs

sh*t my throat is hurt right now, got cold and cough ~~ i think i won't be able to talk tmr ~ ngah! how could i sleep well tonight ? should i stay all night and do nothing while my throat is hurting me even more ~ i've drink as much as i can, and it doesn't work! now my voice is just like a frog

-____- hahaha!

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i was in a good mood 3 minutes ago, and someone destroy it in a second. what a perfect mad! tell me this or that. can you just shut up cz i really stressed out right now, dammit ~~

nothing change~ school was always tiring and also homies was boring. no one can really communicate well to meh~ and all people are just too selfish~ LOL so i talk here loh, ngahaha

Mom told me to get part time job! sick! she know i have no time but still ask me to work, you know i've been think about it for so long time. but i couldn't get any ideas what job fits a student like me~ geez! depressing me a lot..

i feel like crying these two days~ i dun know why i just wanna crying out loud! somebody lend me your shoulders! gah ~~ if only i have someone that could understand me easily~ sigh

LOL; Goodbye !

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i failed at my last physic test again ~ tired enough ~ i've study hard but still i can't do the questions, what a retard (me). gaaah ! i hate my lapie, it lags lots ! and got HANG so much ! i wish for new one~~ LOLOL..

still sad of my tiny score i got this morning, it down my mood so bad! and and someone trying to make me envy, i dun know why or maybe s/he just trying to show off, sigh ~~ why can't i got what i want ? and i fail a lot at my subjects! cih ~~i can't relax now, and again ! parent hurts me. not a big deal but hurt me so deep ! siao liao meh ! keke ~~ i'm such an EMO ==

Life could be Game Over but you still would Try Again ~~

presenting the real cute ! Ngahahah !!

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share you something ^^ sorry .. it's indonesian xP hehehs !

SUARA YANG PALING INDAH

Seorang tua yang tak berpendidikan tengah mengunjungi sebuah kota besar untuk pertama kali dalam hidupnya. Dia dibesarkan di sebuah dusun di pegunungan yang terpencil, bekerja keras membesarkan anak-anaknya, dan kini sedang menikmati kunjungan perdananya ke rumah anak-anaknya yang modern.

Suatu hari, sewaktu dibawa berkelilingkota, orang tua itu mendengar suara yangmenyakitkan telinga. Belum pernah dia mendengar suara yang begitu tidak enak didengar semacam itu di dusunnya yang sunyi. Dia bersikeras mencari sumber bunyi tersebut. Dia mengikuti sumber suara sumbang itu, dan tiba di sebuah ruangan di belakang sebuah rumah, di mana seorang anak kecil sedang belajar bermain biola.

"Ngiiiik! Ngoook!" berasal dari nada sumbang biola tersebut.

Saat dia mengetahui dari putranya bahwa itulah yang dinamakan "biola", dia memutuskan untuk tidak akan pernah mau lagi mendengar suara yg mengerikan tersebut.

Hari berikutnya, di bagian lain kota, orang tua ini mendengar sebuah suara yang seolah membelai-belai telinga tuanya. Belum pernah dia mendengar melodi yang seindah itu di lembah gunungnya, dia pun mencoba mencari sumber suara tersebut. Ketika sampai ke sumbernya, dia tiba di ruangan depan sebuah rumah, di mana seorang perempuan tua, seoranga maestro sedang memainkan sonata dgn biolanya.

Si org tua menyadari kekeliruannya. Suara tidak mengenakkan yg didengarnya kmrn bukanlah kesalahan dr biola, bukan pula salah sang anak. Itu hanyalah proses belajar seorang anak yang belum bisa memainkan biolanya dengan baik.

Dengan kebijaksanaan polosnya, orang tua itu berpikiran bahwa mungkin demikian pula halnya dgn agama. Sewaktu dia bertemu dengan seorang yg menggebu-gebu terhadap kepercayaannya, tidaklah benar utk menyalahkan agamanya. Itu hanyalah proses belajar seorang pemula yg blum bs memainkan agamanya dgn baik. Sewaktu kita bertemu dgn seorang bijak, seorang maestro agamanya, itu merupakan pertemuan indah yang menginspirasi kita selama bertahun-tahun, apa pun kepercayaan mereka.

Namun, ini bukanlah akhir dari cerita.

Hari ketiga, di bagian lain kota, si orang tua mendengar suara lain yang bahkan melebihi kemerduan dan kejernihan suara sang maestro biola. Menurut anda, suara apakah itu?

Melebihi indahnya suara aliran air pegunungan pada musim semi, melebihi indahnya suara angin musim gugur di sebuah hutan, melebihi merdunya suara burung-burung pegunungan yang berkicau setelah hujan lebat. Bahkan meliebihi keindahan hening pegunungan sunyi pada suata malam musim salju. Suara apakah gerangan yang telah menggerakkan hati si orang tua melebihi apapun itu?

Itu suara sebuah orkestra besar yang memainkan sebuah simfoni.

Bagi si orang tua, alasan mengapa itulah suara terindah di dunia adalah pertama, setiap anggota orkestra merupakan maestro alat musiknya masing-masing; dan kedua, mereka telah belajar lebih jauh lagi untuk bisa bermain bersama-sama dalam harmoni.

"Mungkin ini sama dengan agama," pikir si orang tua. "Marilah kita semua mempelajari hakikat kelembutan agama kita melalui pelajaran-pelajaran kehidupan. Marilah kita semua menjadi maestro cinta kasih di dalam agama masing-masing. Lalu, setelah mempelajari agama kita dengan baik, lebih jauh lagi, mari kita belajar untuk bermain, seperti halnya para anggota sebuah orkestra, bersama-sama dengan penganut agama lain dalam sebuah harmoni!"

Itulah suara yang paling indah. (Disalin dari buku dgn judul "Si Cacing dan Kotoran Kesayangannya", artikel ke 75)

"all that we are is the result of all that we have thought" -Buddha

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